Advent 1

Waiting. Waiting is all. It feels so close but the wait is just beginning.

Now I must be calm. The earth has just begun to rest. The leaves have just fallen. The cold has just begun to drift in on the wind. The season of sleep is still creeping in.

There is a long wait ahead. Patience.

Waiting. Waiting is all. It feels like there is so much to do but now is not the moment, not right now.

Now I must be still, catch my breath and let it linger inside. Feel the moment and hold back my desperation for the dawn. Light will flow in time.

There is a long wait ahead. Patience.

Waiting. Waiting is all. Sometimes my frustration is hard to still. Inertia everywhere and I scream for change.

Now I must trust. The vision will not die. It isn’t mine to force into life. I know there must be change coming, I feel it in the shifting colours, hear it in far off conversations.

There is a long wait ahead. Patience.

Waiting. Waiting is all. All I have right now is the wait. Uncertainty wrestles anticipation in front of me. Hope and fear bound in a spinning endless second.

Now I must watch. To learn, to know beyond my need. To stand guard whilst conflict rages and hear the cries of battle. I need to understand.

There is a long wait ahead. Patience.

Waiting. Waiting is all. But waiting is not nothing, it is everything. It is drawing deep on all that is to be born.

Now I must have faith. For faith is all that’s left. We are perishing. We are being remade far away. I am being remade in my hidden places. The Son will break my horizon, the day will come.

There is a long wait ahead. Patience.

Waiting. Waiting is all. Not long to go now.

the stream

Given time a stream cuts deep, slicing into the hardest rock. No need for heat or cold, no need for tools or explosives, no need to rush at change. The caressing current, wears away at imperfections and weaknesses, smoothing, shaping, carving, creating glistening shapes. Down and down through the layers of the years, through all that has become attached and grown. Melting away at the outer coats and stripping back the shell, slowly, gently exposing the colour and texture of innocent days and sweet memories. Pouring down vast funnels into inner places and hidden hearts, washing, quenching, stirring. On it tumbles polishing beauty back in to the worn and dirty, spewing its load out into the ocean where it binds and births life and land for others yet to be. Time slows and water flows, rest and watch. Change is happening.

A tree by the water

In the rushing flood may my feet dig deep and find purchase.
May the bite of the stones into my soul waken my senses.
Bend my knees that I may not be an obstacle to the flow.
Give me strength to stand and become one with the waters,
Give me balance that I would not be cast aside.
Wash me not away but strip me of my mess.
Help my flailing hands find the hands of others,
That we might stand strong together.
That we might be the roots of a tall tree,
A tree that dips it’s branches in the waters,
And grows into a home for the small and weak.
When the waves still and the floods settle,
May the water swell rich fruits and paint vivid colours.
Twist us as one toward the light of heaven,
And bind us deep into the earth.
May our shadow be a place of healing,
And all those who rest in it find love.

(inspired by Revelation 22)